Saturday, October 27, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
The most beautiful rainbow
I was in the process of deleting old emails and came across this one.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that
wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You
will have your heart broken probably more than once and
it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so
remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight
with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things
an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too
many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never
been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be
afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never
begin.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that
wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You
will have your heart broken probably more than once and
it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so
remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight
with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things
an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too
many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never
been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be
afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never
begin.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
independence day
cartwheels, backflips, pirouettes - just few of the things i wanted to do after seeing my permanent resident card (green card) in the mail today. honestly there are no words to describe how it felt. but one thing is for sure - it felt so damn good!hope floats eternal.
it's a happy day.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
drop by for some tea ...
IT'S OFFICIAL!i am now a resident of Sweet Jasmine Lane in Woodland Hills.
big shout out to Nick, Cliburn, Tom and Joel for helping me move. thanks for not hating me. i know it was a tough day considering it was 115 degree right when we were unloading the truck. we survived it though, right? hope you enjoyed the greasy pizza as much as i did.
and after all the boxes has been unpacked and all my stuff organized, please feel free to come by for some tea. i don't live on Sweet Jasmine Lane for nothing.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
some things i just don't understand....
Helmsley's Dog Gets $12 Million in Will
Wednesday August 29, 6:12 am ET
Helmsley Dog Gets $12 Million, but Real Estate Billionaire Leaves Nothing to 2 Grandchildren
NEW YORK (AP) -- Leona Helmsley's dog will continue to live an opulent life, and then be buried alongside her in a mausoleum. But two of Helmsley's grandchildren got nothing from the late luxury hotelier and real estate billionaire's estate.
Helmsley left her beloved white Maltese, named Trouble, a $12 million trust fund, according to her will, which was made public Tuesday in surrogate court.
She also left millions for her brother, Alvin Rosenthal, who was named to care for Trouble in her absence, as well as two of four grandchildren from her late son Jay Panzirer -- so long as they visit their father's grave site once each calendar year.
Otherwise, she wrote, neither will get a penny of the $5 million she left for each.
Helmsley left nothing to two of Jay Panzirer's other children -- Craig and Meegan Panzirer -- for "reasons that are known to them," she wrote.
But no one made out better than Trouble, who once appeared in ads for the Helmsley Hotels, and lived up to her name by biting a housekeeper.
"I direct that when my dog, Trouble, dies, her remains shall be buried next to my remains in the Helmsley mausoleum," Helmsley wrote in her will.
The mausoleum, she ordered, must be "washed or steam-cleaned at least once a year." She left behind $3 million for the upkeep of her final resting place in Westchester County, where she is buried with her husband, Harry Helmsley.
She also left her chauffeur, Nicholas Celea, $100,000.
She ordered that cash from sales of the Helmsley's residences and belongings, reported to be worth billions, be sold and that the money be given to the Leona M. and Harry B. Helmsley Charitable Trust.
Her longtime spokesman, Howard Rubenstein, had no comment.
Helmsley died earlier this month at her Connecticut home. She became known as a symbol of 1980s greed and earned the nickname "the Queen of Mean" after her 1988 indictment and subsequent conviction for tax evasion. One employee had quoted her as snarling, "Only the little people pay taxes."
Source: Yahoo Finance
http://biz.yahoo.com/ap/070829/helmsley_s_pooch.html?.v=1
*****
$12 million is a lot of dog food is all i can say.
*****
Wednesday August 29, 6:12 am ET
Helmsley Dog Gets $12 Million, but Real Estate Billionaire Leaves Nothing to 2 Grandchildren
NEW YORK (AP) -- Leona Helmsley's dog will continue to live an opulent life, and then be buried alongside her in a mausoleum. But two of Helmsley's grandchildren got nothing from the late luxury hotelier and real estate billionaire's estate.Helmsley left her beloved white Maltese, named Trouble, a $12 million trust fund, according to her will, which was made public Tuesday in surrogate court.
She also left millions for her brother, Alvin Rosenthal, who was named to care for Trouble in her absence, as well as two of four grandchildren from her late son Jay Panzirer -- so long as they visit their father's grave site once each calendar year.
Otherwise, she wrote, neither will get a penny of the $5 million she left for each.
Helmsley left nothing to two of Jay Panzirer's other children -- Craig and Meegan Panzirer -- for "reasons that are known to them," she wrote.
But no one made out better than Trouble, who once appeared in ads for the Helmsley Hotels, and lived up to her name by biting a housekeeper.
"I direct that when my dog, Trouble, dies, her remains shall be buried next to my remains in the Helmsley mausoleum," Helmsley wrote in her will.
The mausoleum, she ordered, must be "washed or steam-cleaned at least once a year." She left behind $3 million for the upkeep of her final resting place in Westchester County, where she is buried with her husband, Harry Helmsley.
She also left her chauffeur, Nicholas Celea, $100,000.
She ordered that cash from sales of the Helmsley's residences and belongings, reported to be worth billions, be sold and that the money be given to the Leona M. and Harry B. Helmsley Charitable Trust.
Her longtime spokesman, Howard Rubenstein, had no comment.
Helmsley died earlier this month at her Connecticut home. She became known as a symbol of 1980s greed and earned the nickname "the Queen of Mean" after her 1988 indictment and subsequent conviction for tax evasion. One employee had quoted her as snarling, "Only the little people pay taxes."
Source: Yahoo Finance
http://biz.yahoo.com/ap/070829/helmsley_s_pooch.html?.v=1
*****
$12 million is a lot of dog food is all i can say.
*****
Sunday, August 26, 2007
hello telephone ....
I was cleaning out my storage cabinet and i came across my first cell phone in the US. A Nokia 5165.
This cellphone doubles as a paper weight, an ironing device for minor creases, and a protective weapon in case of assault.
*wink*
This cellphone doubles as a paper weight, an ironing device for minor creases, and a protective weapon in case of assault.
*wink*
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
disarray ...
i woke up this morning and was shocked to find out my fridge is gone. my heart skipped. i blinked, rubbed my eyes, looked around my apartment and then realized WHY there's an empty spot in my kitchen and WHY my apartment is in total disarray. i'm moving.
i grunted as i made myself a cup of coffee and secretly wished for a magic spell that will move my shtuff with a wink of an eye or a swish of a hand or a snap of a finger. i scan the chaos. the caffeine slowly sank in and of course, there is NO spell - magical or not - that will make the move easier. plain and simple, i just have to deal with it.
now don't get me wrong - i'm actually looking forward to moving in to the new apartment. i love it - private garage, big living room, guest bathroom, washer dryer in unit, the works. what i'm not too crazy about is the process in between. the packing, the physical move and unpacking is an idea i vehemently loathe.
if you haven't used it in the last 2 years then you probably never will ... ever! that's the general rule i set for myself as i started sorting through one of the cabinets yesterday. i found my portable cd player(gawd i can't believe i used to carry this around the gym), a teddy bear from an ex, notes/letters/pictures from another ex, three different chargers for cellphones i no longer have, an adapter for i don't know what exactly, a christmas tin box with candies (eek), a burned copy of Diary of Alicia Keys ... the list of crap goes on and on an on. with a little pang of guilt and pain in my heart, i tossed everything in a trash bag. and i repeated to myself - if you haven't used it in the last 2 years then you probably never will ... ever!
the insanity doesn't end there. there's a couple more cabinets to go through, some drawers and not to mention the closet. the next 2 weeks will be stressful and exhausting but i'm pretty sure it will be all worth it.
i grunted as i made myself a cup of coffee and secretly wished for a magic spell that will move my shtuff with a wink of an eye or a swish of a hand or a snap of a finger. i scan the chaos. the caffeine slowly sank in and of course, there is NO spell - magical or not - that will make the move easier. plain and simple, i just have to deal with it.
now don't get me wrong - i'm actually looking forward to moving in to the new apartment. i love it - private garage, big living room, guest bathroom, washer dryer in unit, the works. what i'm not too crazy about is the process in between. the packing, the physical move and unpacking is an idea i vehemently loathe.
if you haven't used it in the last 2 years then you probably never will ... ever! that's the general rule i set for myself as i started sorting through one of the cabinets yesterday. i found my portable cd player(gawd i can't believe i used to carry this around the gym), a teddy bear from an ex, notes/letters/pictures from another ex, three different chargers for cellphones i no longer have, an adapter for i don't know what exactly, a christmas tin box with candies (eek), a burned copy of Diary of Alicia Keys ... the list of crap goes on and on an on. with a little pang of guilt and pain in my heart, i tossed everything in a trash bag. and i repeated to myself - if you haven't used it in the last 2 years then you probably never will ... ever!
the insanity doesn't end there. there's a couple more cabinets to go through, some drawers and not to mention the closet. the next 2 weeks will be stressful and exhausting but i'm pretty sure it will be all worth it.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Mattel Voluntary Recall
Please read and forward info to all concerned.
http://www.mattel.com/safety/us/
sorry nick ... but you might have to return your Polly Pocket Playset.
http://www.mattel.com/safety/us/
sorry nick ... but you might have to return your Polly Pocket Playset.
Monday, August 13, 2007
more happy birthdays ...
i guess one of the consequences of having a ton of friends is that there is always someone celebrating a birthday. the past 3 weekends saw the birthday celebrations for me, then joel, then just yesterday - phillip. next up is eric and then marky.
no complaints though. it's always a joy to have yummy food and drinks with a bunch of crazy people.
happy birthday philip!
no complaints though. it's always a joy to have yummy food and drinks with a bunch of crazy people.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Umbrella
damn all these acoustic versions of rhianna's umbrella, this song is starting to grow on me! hearing the toned down version i was able to pay attention to the words. and i have to admit - the lyrics isn't so bad.
thanks to tommyknox100 from youtube for this impressive performance. rock on!
check it out..
thanks to tommyknox100 from youtube for this impressive performance. rock on!
check it out..
Friday, July 27, 2007
ang bulaklak ...
well i guess turning 30 isn't so bad when you got someone sending you a dozen red roses at work ....
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
good for the soul...
i was putting away the "tabo" and it dawned on - mom has gone back home and i am alone again. i started sobbing.
it's been a week since my mom and sisters left and as i slowly get back into the swing of things, i look back at the past 3 weeks and feel a sense of fulfillment. there are a thousand adjectives to describe mom's trip to LA, but if i had to choose one word, it would be LIBERATING. i was able to open up to her and express myself in ways i've never done before. it was good to finally tell her. we both cried. when she said she understands and she is accepting and that she still loves me - i cried even more.
needless to say, the opportunity to spend time with my family after 6 longs years is exactly what i needed. it's been a tough journey, not just for me but for everyone, most specially after we lost papa. it's a pretty hard reality but we have to accept that there will never be another trip with him. life will never be the same.
as i struggle to find normalcy, i continuously remind myself that i am never alone. i am blessed with a loving family who i know, despite our distance, will always be there for me. i have a solid circle of friends. the kind who will stick with you through both the good times and the bad. i am very lucky and i am forever thankful.
it's been a week since my mom and sisters left and as i slowly get back into the swing of things, i look back at the past 3 weeks and feel a sense of fulfillment. there are a thousand adjectives to describe mom's trip to LA, but if i had to choose one word, it would be LIBERATING. i was able to open up to her and express myself in ways i've never done before. it was good to finally tell her. we both cried. when she said she understands and she is accepting and that she still loves me - i cried even more.
needless to say, the opportunity to spend time with my family after 6 longs years is exactly what i needed. it's been a tough journey, not just for me but for everyone, most specially after we lost papa. it's a pretty hard reality but we have to accept that there will never be another trip with him. life will never be the same.
as i struggle to find normalcy, i continuously remind myself that i am never alone. i am blessed with a loving family who i know, despite our distance, will always be there for me. i have a solid circle of friends. the kind who will stick with you through both the good times and the bad. i am very lucky and i am forever thankful.
Monday, March 19, 2007
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
| Your Birthdate: July 27 |
 You are a spiritual soul - a person who tries to find meaning in everything. You spend a good amount of time meditating, trying to figure out life. Helping others is also important to you. You enjoy social activities with that goal. You are very generous and giving. Yet you expect very little in return. Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge Your power color: Cobalt blue Your power symbol: Dove Your power month: September |
Monday, February 26, 2007
on the 7th day ....
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong -doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life.
- DREW CHALKER
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Love 07
Love is patient; love is kind.
Love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude.
It does not insist on its own way: it is not irritable or resentful;
It does not rejoice in wrong doing, but rejoices in truth.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
1 Corinthians 13
Love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude.
It does not insist on its own way: it is not irritable or resentful;
It does not rejoice in wrong doing, but rejoices in truth.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
1 Corinthians 13
Monday, February 12, 2007
letter for papa.... (REPOST)
in observance of my father's first year death anniversary - i am reposting the last letter i wrote for him. this was the same letter that was read at his funeral and a copy of which was placed inside his coffin before he was put in his final resting place.
I miss you, PAPA!
* * * * *
february 2006
dear papa,
i don't know how or where to begin. this is probably the most painful letter i ever have to write.
i guess i should start by saying - i am sorry. for not being there in your most difficult and trying time and also for not being there today. i know that in your heart and in your mind, you know how much i wanted to be there. i've always longed to hold you and console you and be the good son i wanted to be. unfortunately, certain situations wouldn't let me. i hope you understand. a part of me believes that where i am right now is exactly where you want me to be. this was your grand plan all along. you've worked very hard to provide me with a comfortable life and good education among other things. it was your goal to secure a good future for mama, for my brother and sisters, and for myself. papa, i know you can hear me, and i want you to know that you have succeeded in more ways than one.
although another part of me is lost, i am faithful that in time, i will fully understand our fate.
also, i want to say thank you for a million reasons. you have been a loving husband, a devoted father, a supportive father in law, an adoring grandfather, a valuable friend to peers, coworkers and even acquaintances. you will always be the strong, invulnerable gentleman both kids and adults look up to.
most importantly, thank you for showing us the real meaning of courage and strength. you have redefined bravery and for that, i know i have no reason to feel weak. you are a true gentleman and always will be.
in my heart i will hold a promise - to always remember august 29, 2001. four years, five months, and twenty days ago. as i watched you and mama walk through that gate at the san francisco airport, never did i imagine that it was gonna be the last time i will see you. that particular date shall mark the turning point of our journey.
this is not the end. it will never be. for i am certain that you will be with me as i go through my own personal journey. i know that you will be watching over me and guiding me through the right path.
i am in great pain that i can not be there to read you this letter. my heart bears so much heaviness with the fact that i won't have the chance to say my final goodbye. but i believe that you are always with me and that our love will transgress through the distance.
papa ... the strength you have exemplified will be my inspiration. the knowledge you imparted will be my guiding light. your courage shall make me stronger and in your peace i shall find mine.
i love you and til we meet again...
much love,
your bunso - alex
* * * * *
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
welcome akia
today i learned that my good friend, virgie, gave the world a beautiful gift named Dion Akia Tumulak.
congratulations to virgie and diony. i look forward to meeting your precious little girl.
congratulations to virgie and diony. i look forward to meeting your precious little girl.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
and i begin to wonder
my tarot reading for today - february 1, 2007 ...
"Today is a day where things become official, or legal. And that's not surprising: Justice and the Sun are intent on legalizing an aspect of your private life. Could it be that your significant other is asking you for your hand? Or, if marriage is not on the cards, dear APM, maybe you'll move in together, or you'll finally meet the parents-in-law? Could this be a promise of a sincere and long-lasting relationship?"
hmmmm??? reeeally??
"Today is a day where things become official, or legal. And that's not surprising: Justice and the Sun are intent on legalizing an aspect of your private life. Could it be that your significant other is asking you for your hand? Or, if marriage is not on the cards, dear APM, maybe you'll move in together, or you'll finally meet the parents-in-law? Could this be a promise of a sincere and long-lasting relationship?"
hmmmm??? reeeally??
Sunday, January 07, 2007
The Power of 07
HAPPY 07!!!
Kudos to Marvin for hosting an awesome NYE party!
Thursday, January 04, 2007
My quit anniversary ...
Today marks the 2nd year of my quitting from smoking. I'm very happy that i'm able to pull this off. Surprisingly, quitting was difficult only the first two to three weeks. After a while it was just smooth sailing. I know easier said than done specially for long time smokers. Sheer determination and setting goals helped me a lot. Hopefully with this quick word i am able to reach out and help someone.
Below is my quit info courtesy of quitnet.com
Your Quit Date is: Monday, January 03, 2005 at 9:00:00 AM
Time Smoke-Free:729 days, 17 hours, 53 minutes and 33 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked:7297
Lifetime Saved:1 month, 25 days, 17 hours
Money Saved:$1,277.50
It feels good to be alive!
Below is my quit info courtesy of quitnet.com
Your Quit Date is: Monday, January 03, 2005 at 9:00:00 AM
Time Smoke-Free:729 days, 17 hours, 53 minutes and 33 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked:7297
Lifetime Saved:1 month, 25 days, 17 hours
Money Saved:$1,277.50
It feels good to be alive!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
i'm sowee ...
i've been pretty crazy busy hence i haven't posted anything recently. but as a 'forgive me' present to you all - video clip taken at dance class 12/4. happy viewing...
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Sunday, October 01, 2006
my new friend cora ...
i honestly couldn't remember the last time i was on a horse ... but when ever the hell it was, i'm pretty sure it wouldn't come close to my horsie-riding experience in malibu earlier today. thanks dennis! i had a great time.
view from the top. too bad it was slightly overcast but if you look closely you can see the ocean in the distance
that's oregon boy right there in the blue shirt. hehe..
riding up the malibu trail.
that's cora right there. taking a little snack break.
and that's cora hot round ass. sorry cora, i couldn't help it. i just had to take a picture. oh by the way, i took this picture right after she pooped. obviously, she had way too many snacks and couldn't hold it in.
and i'm pretty darn sure that some of my readers/friends are skeptical about me going horse back riding. scroll down fools.
and that's me with cora. isn't she pretty?
if anyone is interested to go horsie back riding, visit http://www.malibulakeriders.com/. and if you happen to ride cora, tell her i send my warments regards. =)
if anyone is interested to go horsie back riding, visit http://www.malibulakeriders.com/. and if you happen to ride cora, tell her i send my warments regards. =)
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Men Are Just Happier People
sent to me by my friend eva. what has hong kong done to you?!!
Men Are Just Happier People. What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth.
The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another petrol station toilet because this one is just too dirty. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress costs $1500. A Tux rental is only $100.
People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. You have one mood all the time. Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
Your underwear is $10 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original colour. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck. You can play with toys all your life. Your belly usually hides your big hips. You need only one wallet and one pair of shoes. You want only one colour for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look! You can "do" your nails with a penknife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a moustache.
You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes. You don't freak out when you go to a party and see another man wearing the same
shirt, instead you become buddies.
No WONDER men are happier...
reeeally??
Men Are Just Happier People. What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth.
The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another petrol station toilet because this one is just too dirty. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress costs $1500. A Tux rental is only $100.
People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. You have one mood all the time. Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
Your underwear is $10 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original colour. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck. You can play with toys all your life. Your belly usually hides your big hips. You need only one wallet and one pair of shoes. You want only one colour for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look! You can "do" your nails with a penknife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a moustache.
You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes. You don't freak out when you go to a party and see another man wearing the same
shirt, instead you become buddies.
No WONDER men are happier...
reeeally??
Monday, September 25, 2006
sayaw tayo ...
i was digging thru some emails and came across this. lol ...
Whenever Werever Whatever by Maxwell
and another one...
Bless My Soul Again by Harlem Lee
definitely one of my favorite routines. thanks frank and thanks harlem. go pinoy talent!
Whenever Werever Whatever by Maxwell
and another one...
Bless My Soul Again by Harlem Lee
definitely one of my favorite routines. thanks frank and thanks harlem. go pinoy talent!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
to blog or not to blog?
i look at my blog page and i wanna puke. it's pathetic and i ask myself why do i even keep a f'ing blog page?! my life is ..... lifeless. there's nothing really to blog about.
the frustration kills me. i may not be the most talented writer in the world but i do know i have ideas, life experiences, or even random thoughts that i can share. sometimes it simply escapes me.
oooh Camp24 Jabs N' Abs - finally got the chance to go since i stayed in friday night and managed to go to bed at 10pm. "... Jabs N' Abs utilizes simple kickboxing movements that target the abdominal muscles!" i thought it was gonna be a piece of cake and walked in there with much confidence. i can do an hour and a half of dance class anyway so what's an hour of Jabs N' Abs??? boy was i wrong - after 30 minutes of punching in the air and jumping around, this boy was ready to pass out. the last 20 minutes of the class was dedicated to sit-ups. sit-ups in every manner imaginable! in my every push i was for sure my cup of coffee will find its way out of my mouth. i wanted to give up but i huffed and i puffed and somehow i managed to finish the class. after the last set of stretches - i shot a cocky "good class!" to the teacher and walked out. i popped 2 tylenols the minute i got home. today i learned that there's a clear difference between pirouettes and battlements versus Jabs N' Abs.
the frustration kills me. i may not be the most talented writer in the world but i do know i have ideas, life experiences, or even random thoughts that i can share. sometimes it simply escapes me.
oooh Camp24 Jabs N' Abs - finally got the chance to go since i stayed in friday night and managed to go to bed at 10pm. "... Jabs N' Abs utilizes simple kickboxing movements that target the abdominal muscles!" i thought it was gonna be a piece of cake and walked in there with much confidence. i can do an hour and a half of dance class anyway so what's an hour of Jabs N' Abs??? boy was i wrong - after 30 minutes of punching in the air and jumping around, this boy was ready to pass out. the last 20 minutes of the class was dedicated to sit-ups. sit-ups in every manner imaginable! in my every push i was for sure my cup of coffee will find its way out of my mouth. i wanted to give up but i huffed and i puffed and somehow i managed to finish the class. after the last set of stretches - i shot a cocky "good class!" to the teacher and walked out. i popped 2 tylenols the minute i got home. today i learned that there's a clear difference between pirouettes and battlements versus Jabs N' Abs.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
quit anniversary ...
Your Quit Date is: 1/3/2005 9:00:00 AM
Time Smoke-Free: 618 days, 2 hours, 53 minutes and 1 second
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 6181
Lifetime Saved: 1 month, 17 days, 5 hours
Money Saved: $1,081.50
Time Smoke-Free: 618 days, 2 hours, 53 minutes and 1 second
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 6181
Lifetime Saved: 1 month, 17 days, 5 hours
Money Saved: $1,081.50
Monday, September 04, 2006
sigh.
i had a good life before you...
it was empty actually, but at least i was blissfully unaware of how miserable i was. whereas now, because of you, i am acutely aware of how completely and totally unhappy i am. thank you for that.
- from Failure to Launch
it was empty actually, but at least i was blissfully unaware of how miserable i was. whereas now, because of you, i am acutely aware of how completely and totally unhappy i am. thank you for that.
- from Failure to Launch
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Thursday, August 03, 2006
quit anniversary ...
Your Quit Date is: Monday, January 03, 2005 at 9:00:00 AM
Time Smoke-Free: 576 days, 18 hours, 2 minutes and 34 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 5768
Lifetime Saved: 1 month, 14 days, 1 hour
Money Saved: $1,009.75
Time Smoke-Free: 576 days, 18 hours, 2 minutes and 34 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 5768
Lifetime Saved: 1 month, 14 days, 1 hour
Money Saved: $1,009.75
Sunday, July 30, 2006
29th year ...
a combination of great food, a 3-day weekend, endless calls and text messages, cupcakes, nice weather, a night of dancing, designer jeans, flowers, overflowing vodka, awesome gifts, AND a jason mraz cake enjoyed in the company of the most amazing group of people i more lovingly call 'family' than 'friends'.
a quiet dinner and a fun movie.
i'm thankful...
a quiet dinner and a fun movie.
i'm thankful...
more fun pictures HERE
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Saturday, July 08, 2006
virginia
virzie!!!! great to see you. gosh i still can't believe you're pregnant. when will it be my turn? ha!
i'll you see you around.
MORE PICS HERE
(courtesy of virginia)
Monday, June 05, 2006
fine! bite me ...
i know i know. i've been lagging behind on keeping my blog page up to date. for whatever it's worth - i'm sorry (LOL).
here's the thing though - nothing has been going on with my life. nothing too exciting to write about. it's amazing how one event can change one's life. like in an instant you're a different person.
i read somewhere that a person becomes an adult when you bury a parent or become a parent yourself. obviously i'm not gonna be a parent anytime soon. and when my father passed away in february, i never got the chance to see him. i didn't get to see him during his last moments. i didn't even get to be a pallbearer at his funeral. and yes, i didn't get a chance to personally say goodbye.
i read somewhere too that there are 5 stages in dealing with death. i'm not gonna dwell on each one of these steps but the particular stage in question is the 5th and final and definitely the most difficult - ACCEPTANCE. i simply didn't understand how to accept the loss. maybe i have accepted but didn't know it or that maybe, like in some cases i've read, acceptance wouldn't happen until after a few years. that idea scares me.
"accepting loss/death of a loved one is fully accomplished when one has fully understand the fact that he or she is not coming back"
i've said before that missing out on my own father's funeral is the demon that i will have to deal with for the rest of my life. i have promised myself and the people that i love that i will do my best to be ok and slowly move on. it's easier said than done. on the outside i am ok, but on the inside i'm in pain. when surrounded by friends, i'm ok. but in solitude, i am not. most of the time i lose the battle against my own demon. on the bright side, i guess the situation provides me with some kind of balance. the joy of being with friends evens out the pain i feel when alone. finding a happy medium is my goal right now. and in my own time, i will heal.
'nuf said.
here's the thing though - nothing has been going on with my life. nothing too exciting to write about. it's amazing how one event can change one's life. like in an instant you're a different person.
i read somewhere that a person becomes an adult when you bury a parent or become a parent yourself. obviously i'm not gonna be a parent anytime soon. and when my father passed away in february, i never got the chance to see him. i didn't get to see him during his last moments. i didn't even get to be a pallbearer at his funeral. and yes, i didn't get a chance to personally say goodbye.
i read somewhere too that there are 5 stages in dealing with death. i'm not gonna dwell on each one of these steps but the particular stage in question is the 5th and final and definitely the most difficult - ACCEPTANCE. i simply didn't understand how to accept the loss. maybe i have accepted but didn't know it or that maybe, like in some cases i've read, acceptance wouldn't happen until after a few years. that idea scares me.
"accepting loss/death of a loved one is fully accomplished when one has fully understand the fact that he or she is not coming back"
i've said before that missing out on my own father's funeral is the demon that i will have to deal with for the rest of my life. i have promised myself and the people that i love that i will do my best to be ok and slowly move on. it's easier said than done. on the outside i am ok, but on the inside i'm in pain. when surrounded by friends, i'm ok. but in solitude, i am not. most of the time i lose the battle against my own demon. on the bright side, i guess the situation provides me with some kind of balance. the joy of being with friends evens out the pain i feel when alone. finding a happy medium is my goal right now. and in my own time, i will heal.
'nuf said.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
on the 40th day ....
it's been a while. i'm trying to get back on the saddle. the past few weeks has been pretty rough so please bear with me. be nice! =)
before i totally forget - thank you to everyone who offered their support and prayers. in losing my father i gained realization that i am blessed with awesome friends. i will be forever grateful for literally and figuratively holding me up when my world seemed to be falling apart. my love goes out to all of you. i will never forget...
today my family and i observe papa's 40th day of death. it is believed that on this day his soul leaves earth and enters the gates of heaven. hence prayers are offered to aid his journey from earth to heaven where his soul will forever be in peace.
as for those of us who were left behind, the long process of healing begins. it's been extremely difficult for me since i am away from home, away from family who can provide me with a strong emotional backbone that i badly need right now. i have to heal. i promise myself that somehow i'll make it. i survived before. i no reason to fail now.
before i totally forget - thank you to everyone who offered their support and prayers. in losing my father i gained realization that i am blessed with awesome friends. i will be forever grateful for literally and figuratively holding me up when my world seemed to be falling apart. my love goes out to all of you. i will never forget...
today my family and i observe papa's 40th day of death. it is believed that on this day his soul leaves earth and enters the gates of heaven. hence prayers are offered to aid his journey from earth to heaven where his soul will forever be in peace.
as for those of us who were left behind, the long process of healing begins. it's been extremely difficult for me since i am away from home, away from family who can provide me with a strong emotional backbone that i badly need right now. i have to heal. i promise myself that somehow i'll make it. i survived before. i no reason to fail now.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
letter for papa ....
february 2006
dear papa,
i don't know how or where to begin. this is probably the most painful letter i ever have to write.
i guess i should start by saying - i am sorry. for not being there in your most difficult and trying time and also for not being there today. i know that in your heart and in your mind, you know how much i wanted to be there. i've always longed to hold you and console you and be the good son i wanted to be. unfortunately, certain situations wouldn't let me. i hope you understand. a part of me believes that where i am right now is exactly where you want me to be. this was your grand plan all along. you've worked very hard to provide me with a comfortable life and good education among other things. it was your goal to secure a good future for mama, for my brother and sisters, and for myself. papa, i know you can hear me, and i want you to know that you have succeeded in more ways than one.
although another part of me is lost, i am faithful that in time, i will fully understand our fate.
also, i want to say thank you for a million reasons. you have been a loving husband, a devoted father, a supportive father in law, an adoring grandfather, a valuable friend to peers, coworkers and even acquaintances. you will always be the strong, invulnerable gentleman both kids and adults look up to.
most importantly, thank you for showing us the real meaning of courage and strength. you have redefined bravery and for that, i know i have no reason to feel weak. you are a true gentleman and always will be.
in my heart i will hold a promise - to always remember august 29, 2001. four years, five months, and twenty days ago. as i watched you and mama walk through that gate at the san francisco airport, never did i imagine that it was gonna be the last time i will see you. that particular date shall mark the turning point of our journey.
this is not the end. it will never be. for i am certain that you will be with me as i go through my own personal journey. i know that you will be watching over me and guiding me through the right path.
i am in great pain that i can not be there to read you this letter. my heart bears so much heaviness with the fact that i won't have the chance to say my final goodbye. but i believe that you are always with me and that our love will transgress through the distance.
papa ... the strength you have exemplified will be my inspiration. the knowledge you imparted will be my guiding light. your courage shall make me stronger and in your peace i shall find mine.
i love you and til we meet again...
much love,
your bunso - alex
dear papa,
i don't know how or where to begin. this is probably the most painful letter i ever have to write.
i guess i should start by saying - i am sorry. for not being there in your most difficult and trying time and also for not being there today. i know that in your heart and in your mind, you know how much i wanted to be there. i've always longed to hold you and console you and be the good son i wanted to be. unfortunately, certain situations wouldn't let me. i hope you understand. a part of me believes that where i am right now is exactly where you want me to be. this was your grand plan all along. you've worked very hard to provide me with a comfortable life and good education among other things. it was your goal to secure a good future for mama, for my brother and sisters, and for myself. papa, i know you can hear me, and i want you to know that you have succeeded in more ways than one.
although another part of me is lost, i am faithful that in time, i will fully understand our fate.
also, i want to say thank you for a million reasons. you have been a loving husband, a devoted father, a supportive father in law, an adoring grandfather, a valuable friend to peers, coworkers and even acquaintances. you will always be the strong, invulnerable gentleman both kids and adults look up to.
most importantly, thank you for showing us the real meaning of courage and strength. you have redefined bravery and for that, i know i have no reason to feel weak. you are a true gentleman and always will be.
in my heart i will hold a promise - to always remember august 29, 2001. four years, five months, and twenty days ago. as i watched you and mama walk through that gate at the san francisco airport, never did i imagine that it was gonna be the last time i will see you. that particular date shall mark the turning point of our journey.
this is not the end. it will never be. for i am certain that you will be with me as i go through my own personal journey. i know that you will be watching over me and guiding me through the right path.
i am in great pain that i can not be there to read you this letter. my heart bears so much heaviness with the fact that i won't have the chance to say my final goodbye. but i believe that you are always with me and that our love will transgress through the distance.
papa ... the strength you have exemplified will be my inspiration. the knowledge you imparted will be my guiding light. your courage shall make me stronger and in your peace i shall find mine.
i love you and til we meet again...
much love,
your bunso - alex
Monday, February 20, 2006
Monday, February 13, 2006
urban word of the week ... [7]
valentine's day:
1) holiday maliciously created to make lonely people extremely depressed.
2) a corporate conspiracy conceived by candy makers, rose growers, lingerie stores, and jewellers to get people to spend money on junk.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
1) holiday maliciously created to make lonely people extremely depressed.
2) a corporate conspiracy conceived by candy makers, rose growers, lingerie stores, and jewellers to get people to spend money on junk.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
my fridge is alive!
man, it was a rough week. i'm glad i made it to the weekend. the past few days has been a blur except for thursday when i finally got the chance to stay home and chill. dance class, gym, or dinner get-together after my daily 8 to 5 could be exhausting.
it was my one and only niece's 3rd birthday last monday. i called her and she happily sang 'happy birthday to me' with full gusto over the phone. it was precious! also when i asked her what she was doing, she replied 'i'm watching bambi the reindeer'. hahahaha i laughed so hard i almost fell off my chair. it's amazing what kids would say.
i finally got around to cleaning my fridge. a slice of cheesecake from a holiday party, pasta sauce i made a month ago, 3-week old tuna spread - just a few of the stuff sitting in my fridge and pretty much forming a life of its own. i threw out the tupperware most of them were stored in and i nuked a sauce pan in boiling water for a good 10 minutes. it was scary! no wonder the past few weeks i've been spooked out at home. someone else was living in my apartment - micro organisms breeding unwanted life forms right inside the comfort of my own refrigerator!
it was my one and only niece's 3rd birthday last monday. i called her and she happily sang 'happy birthday to me' with full gusto over the phone. it was precious! also when i asked her what she was doing, she replied 'i'm watching bambi the reindeer'. hahahaha i laughed so hard i almost fell off my chair. it's amazing what kids would say.
i finally got around to cleaning my fridge. a slice of cheesecake from a holiday party, pasta sauce i made a month ago, 3-week old tuna spread - just a few of the stuff sitting in my fridge and pretty much forming a life of its own. i threw out the tupperware most of them were stored in and i nuked a sauce pan in boiling water for a good 10 minutes. it was scary! no wonder the past few weeks i've been spooked out at home. someone else was living in my apartment - micro organisms breeding unwanted life forms right inside the comfort of my own refrigerator!
Monday, February 06, 2006
urban word of the week ... [6]
broke:
It refers to being penniless, out of cash, completely fucking spent, skint
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
It refers to being penniless, out of cash, completely fucking spent, skint
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
weekend randomness ...
it's sunday. after finishing the not-so-impressive-drowned-out-with-special-effects War of the Worlds, i headed to bed for a promised one hour nap. i set my alarm at 530pm but woke up at 630 instead. sigh .. there goes my afternoon.
it's been a rough week. i've been feeling lost and spaced out and homesick. the thing is i don't know what really triggered it. am i going crazy? i'm convinced that it's a pretty normal phase that i usually go through. surprisingly though i've never gotten used to it. after all these years, i couldn't seem to fight the evil of homesickness and it's insane affects on me and my psyche. i have crazy mood swings, i couldn't eat, my motivation is the size of a pea and i'm very emotional. i couldn't find myself. a lot of things are not making any sense right now. should i go see a doctor now?
i'm tired of LA. i should move some place where the seasons change.
looks like the planned mini-reunion with my sisters at louisville, kentucky will fall through. boo! i've been looking forward to it really. seeing ate yvette is possibly the closest i could get to being home. i've imagined the dinners together, the trips to the park with my 3-year old niece, the long talks over coffee. would have been nice. it would have been good for my soul.
maybe i should pack my bags and just go home. but where is home?
it's been a rough week. i've been feeling lost and spaced out and homesick. the thing is i don't know what really triggered it. am i going crazy? i'm convinced that it's a pretty normal phase that i usually go through. surprisingly though i've never gotten used to it. after all these years, i couldn't seem to fight the evil of homesickness and it's insane affects on me and my psyche. i have crazy mood swings, i couldn't eat, my motivation is the size of a pea and i'm very emotional. i couldn't find myself. a lot of things are not making any sense right now. should i go see a doctor now?
i'm tired of LA. i should move some place where the seasons change.
looks like the planned mini-reunion with my sisters at louisville, kentucky will fall through. boo! i've been looking forward to it really. seeing ate yvette is possibly the closest i could get to being home. i've imagined the dinners together, the trips to the park with my 3-year old niece, the long talks over coffee. would have been nice. it would have been good for my soul.
maybe i should pack my bags and just go home. but where is home?
Monday, January 30, 2006
urban word of the week ... [5]
awesomeness test:
1) An act of what appears to be generosity- such as lending an acquaintance a CD or movie, etc., or allowing them to choose what to do for fun- that is really more of a method of evaluating whether or not they're up to your cool standards.
2) An inner struggle that involves the choice between what you believe is cool and what society tells you is cool; if you allow your sense of coolness to triumph over popular opinion, you have passed the awesomeness test.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
1) An act of what appears to be generosity- such as lending an acquaintance a CD or movie, etc., or allowing them to choose what to do for fun- that is really more of a method of evaluating whether or not they're up to your cool standards.
2) An inner struggle that involves the choice between what you believe is cool and what society tells you is cool; if you allow your sense of coolness to triumph over popular opinion, you have passed the awesomeness test.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
blah ... blah ... blah ...
listening to: Dynamite by Jamiroqauire-living the spirit of Canned Heat and Cosmic girl, i am truely enjoying Jamiroqaui's latest cd. the blend of disco, techno funk and dance style gives me a certain high that i actually caught myself jamming and bobbing my head while i listened to the cd at work. favorite track - it's a toss up between seven days in sunny june and time won't wait. the cd name best describes it - dynamite!
currently reading: Home Bound - Filipino American Lives Across Cultures, Communities and Countries by Yen Li Espirituwhile this book is loaded with big words (i.e. transnationlism, annexation, etc.), the author's attempt to define the present "filipino immigrant" by looking into the extensive history of the filipino-american relations, is most certainly engaging. the book is giving me a good overview on how my concept of the 'american dream' evolved from an almost imaginary "mind set" to an actual "living it". the definitions of 'home' from an immigrant's perspective is another topic that i'm particularly interested in.
latest purchase: Braun rechargeable electronic shaver
i'm broke but i gotta have it. so i amex'd that shit! being the semi-klutz that i am, using a razor just isn't my thing! so before i bleed to death in a futile attempt to achieve a clean shave, i decided that an electronic shaver may just be the solution to my problem.
peace!
Saturday, January 28, 2006
JM in manila
JM is now kissing and signing US stamps! how cool is that??
here's an excerpt from JM's 1/23/2006 journal entry called Excuses for Excusing one's Self.
01.19.06
My room here in Manila feels like it did when I left it almost 2 years ago. Assuming it's the same room. It's hard to tell. Hotels have a wonderful way of making you feel like your always coming home, that is, if you show your loyalty to a select few. Holy shit, my name is embroidered on the pillows. I wish I had brought a camera with me now. I would've taken a photo of agro-Toca on the flight to Manila as he was purposefully spilling a soda on the guy in front of him in protest of minimal legroom.
01.21.06
I've spent maybe 6 dollars since I've been here, on two 3-dollar beverages from Starbucks, which were actually paid for by my companions on this adventure. At the show last night, they advertised this hotel as the official residence of Jason Mraz. They aren't kidding. Every employee in this place calls me by my first name. Good morning Mr. Jason. Will you be having tea with us Mr. Jason? Don't forget to take your pillowcases home with you Mr. Jason. My name is embroidered on the pillowcases. They also gave me breakfast coupons so all I have to do is hand one over to feast the waffle, rice and everything that comes from a pig.
Mr. Jason was what they called me when I worked at a day care center for about a month during the summer of 96. It was called Almost Angels Day care center. To me that name sounded more like kids who were almost dead. I couldn't handle that kind of pressure.
Toca scored some (blank) last night, the very same that was given to JaRule and the Black Eyed Peas when they stayed here. I wonder if they had black Eyes Peas inscribed on the pillowcases. If so I want a pair to go with my Black Eyed Pea themed bedroom at home. They will complete the collection in the elegant manner I'm aiming for. Mraz I Am.
***
this boy is too funny!!!
here's an excerpt from JM's 1/23/2006 journal entry called Excuses for Excusing one's Self.
01.19.06
My room here in Manila feels like it did when I left it almost 2 years ago. Assuming it's the same room. It's hard to tell. Hotels have a wonderful way of making you feel like your always coming home, that is, if you show your loyalty to a select few. Holy shit, my name is embroidered on the pillows. I wish I had brought a camera with me now. I would've taken a photo of agro-Toca on the flight to Manila as he was purposefully spilling a soda on the guy in front of him in protest of minimal legroom.
01.21.06
I've spent maybe 6 dollars since I've been here, on two 3-dollar beverages from Starbucks, which were actually paid for by my companions on this adventure. At the show last night, they advertised this hotel as the official residence of Jason Mraz. They aren't kidding. Every employee in this place calls me by my first name. Good morning Mr. Jason. Will you be having tea with us Mr. Jason? Don't forget to take your pillowcases home with you Mr. Jason. My name is embroidered on the pillowcases. They also gave me breakfast coupons so all I have to do is hand one over to feast the waffle, rice and everything that comes from a pig.
Mr. Jason was what they called me when I worked at a day care center for about a month during the summer of 96. It was called Almost Angels Day care center. To me that name sounded more like kids who were almost dead. I couldn't handle that kind of pressure.
Toca scored some (blank) last night, the very same that was given to JaRule and the Black Eyed Peas when they stayed here. I wonder if they had black Eyes Peas inscribed on the pillowcases. If so I want a pair to go with my Black Eyed Pea themed bedroom at home. They will complete the collection in the elegant manner I'm aiming for. Mraz I Am.
***
this boy is too funny!!!
Monday, January 23, 2006
urban word of the week ... [4]
lush:
1. one who becomes intoxicated after a few drinks and flirts with everyone.
2. somebody who drinks alot.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
1. one who becomes intoxicated after a few drinks and flirts with everyone.
2. somebody who drinks alot.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
anywhere but here ...
it's been freezing the past week and today i caught myself looking at this awesome picture i took in hawaii. blue skies, warm water, lush greenery and the sun showering the entire scene with a beautiful orange hue. sigh ... please take me away!
quiet and uneventful - my blog page is a perfect reflection of my life. work, dance class, gym, studying web design - my routine is turning into a dull cycle. even if once in a while i manage to deviate from it - like hang out with friends, or go on a nice dinner date - after it's all done, it feels like my normal routine is way too over-powering to provide a sense of satisfaction that i was actually out of the cycle even for a few moments.
this morning i work up with a slight hang-over and realized that it was gonna be one of those days that i wish the cleaning fairy would come visit me. i was out of clean socks and underwear so laundry had to be done, my apartment looks like hurricane katrina hurled thru it, a stack of used dishes was piled high i'm scared it would topple over, and my bathroom is starting to have a life of its own. sigh ... please take me away!
do i whine too much?
oh speaking of 'whine' ... last night, i set out to join my friends celebrate Jun's birthday. i had 2 glasses of 'wine' at home earlier that night so needless to say, i was pretty much buzzing even before i got to the abbey. yeh, it was a struggle to finish a tall glass of absolut red bull and by the time i downed that shit, i was hammered! driving home wasn't a good idea but i managed. me and mr. b got home in one piece. i'm stubborn and foolish like that unfortunately and i would always always always berate myself the morning after.
mr. b got new brake pads and turn rotors last wednesday. i had to make an emergency visit to the service center after my wheels started making this funky metal-like scratchy sound. i was certain something was wrong and it scared the hell out of me - it felt like my wheels were gonna fly off any second. two hours and 225 dollars later, my car was running smoothly although my finances will be in a rough spot until the next payday. the price i have to pay for safety and some peace of mind. sigh ... please take me away!
celebrity sighting - ryan reynolds smoking outside GroundWorks on sunset and cahuenga. just thought i'd share. lol...
and oh, happy birthday mom! you may not be a big fan of my blog but i love you just the same ...
Monday, January 16, 2006
urban word of the week ... [3]
anablog:
The old fashioned journal you wrote in with crushed tree pulp, binding, and maybe some kind of lock mechanism. For some reason people used to like writing opinions only they read. It is a fad past its prime but Borders still sells them for some reason.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
The old fashioned journal you wrote in with crushed tree pulp, binding, and maybe some kind of lock mechanism. For some reason people used to like writing opinions only they read. It is a fad past its prime but Borders still sells them for some reason.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
Monday, January 09, 2006
the power of words
i received a long overdue 'merry christmas' card from my sister today. in it she wrote,
so little words but big in meaning. my eldest sister expresses her thoughts in such powerful words that it will knock the wind out of you.
i love her for that.
Always write your heart on the sand where waves of forgiveness can wash them away and to carve your blessings on stone where no wind can ever erase them.
All the best!
Always,
Ate Yvette
so little words but big in meaning. my eldest sister expresses her thoughts in such powerful words that it will knock the wind out of you.
i love her for that.
urban word of the week ... [2]
Alex:
A short male, not incredibly good at any one thing. However talented at almost everything, a real all-rounder. Is also quite insecure about his shoe size.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
*great! exactly the kind of validation that i needed. lol!!!*
A short male, not incredibly good at any one thing. However talented at almost everything, a real all-rounder. Is also quite insecure about his shoe size.
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
*great! exactly the kind of validation that i needed. lol!!!*
Sunday, January 08, 2006
mr. db
i got myself a new bestfriend. mr. db - short for dustbuster. but he's not short for anything else. he gets the job done and i'm happy about it.
i've visited like 4 houses recently with a dustbuster laying around in the kitchen or in a discreet area in the living room. the name pretty much gives away the main purpose of the machine but it never crossed my mind that a dustbuster was something i would i ideally have in my house. after gathering a handful of interesting information from friends, i finally got one for myself yesterday. after 16 hours of initial charging, i put mr. db to the test this afternoon and boy, he is a blessing indeed! it picked up, not only annoying dust, but worthless crap on my carpet and on my couch. dirt and hair in between those little crevices in my closet, on my dresser and in the bathroom was sucked into neverland. scraps of foreign objects in my kitchen are now buh-bye.
household chores has never been my cup of tea but today i was saved. i spent the rest of the afternoon and early evening dustbusting. =)
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
1st QUIT anniversary ...
Your Quit Date is: Monday, January 03, 2005 at 9:00:00 AM
Time Smoke-Free: 365 days, 2 hours, 54 minutes and 36 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 3651
Lifetime Saved: 27 days, 21 hours
Money Saved: $638.75
i didn't even realize it's been a year since i quit smoking until i opened an email i received from quitnet.com. it's very overwhelming how one year went by sooo fast. what's more interesting that in one year i managed to save 27 days and 21 hours of my life. i stared at the email with mouth open for a full 30 seconds!
it's good to know that i achieved something the past year after all. i give myself a good pat on the back. and today i declare that my most valuable purchase in 2005 was a pack of Nicoderm CQ Clear Patch - Step 2. =)
365 days, 2 hours, 54 minutes and 36 seconds and counting .....
Time Smoke-Free: 365 days, 2 hours, 54 minutes and 36 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 3651
Lifetime Saved: 27 days, 21 hours
Money Saved: $638.75
i didn't even realize it's been a year since i quit smoking until i opened an email i received from quitnet.com. it's very overwhelming how one year went by sooo fast. what's more interesting that in one year i managed to save 27 days and 21 hours of my life. i stared at the email with mouth open for a full 30 seconds!
it's good to know that i achieved something the past year after all. i give myself a good pat on the back. and today i declare that my most valuable purchase in 2005 was a pack of Nicoderm CQ Clear Patch - Step 2. =)
365 days, 2 hours, 54 minutes and 36 seconds and counting .....
urban word of the week ... [1]
new year:
New Year is a time where over weight fat asses pay for 3 months of gym memberships and go maybe 3 times in the first month, if they get their fat ass off of the couch and turn off Judge Judy or Maury. The time every year where my parents stop smoking for about 3-5 days then start again because of the stress me and my brother put them through, or something like that. Time where we all go out and get drunk and watch a stupid fucking ball be lowered off a building. New year is a great time, we start it off drunk, lie to our selves, and then go back to our normal denial state of mind 2 weeks later..
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
New Year is a time where over weight fat asses pay for 3 months of gym memberships and go maybe 3 times in the first month, if they get their fat ass off of the couch and turn off Judge Judy or Maury. The time every year where my parents stop smoking for about 3-5 days then start again because of the stress me and my brother put them through, or something like that. Time where we all go out and get drunk and watch a stupid fucking ball be lowered off a building. New year is a great time, we start it off drunk, lie to our selves, and then go back to our normal denial state of mind 2 weeks later..
SOURCE:
urbandictionary.com
Define Your World.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
hello there 2006
i have to admit that i am pretty glad that 2005 is over and done with.
the past year has been a rough one commencing with the K break-up in january. over the summer i learned of my father's health situation. right before thanksgiving day i was thrown back to my previous position at the corporate office. in between these major events were a few more 'down' situations. oddly, a great deal of the past year has been spent in the 'down'. it felt like i never was in the 'up'.
but like any roller coaster, the up and down ride through life comes to a stop. for a few minutes, the engine comes to a halt for a deserved breather. it is an opportunity to rest, process how the previous ride was and determine how to face the succeeding roll. at this point, we get off the roller coaster and think. then we are given a chance to have another go at it. ride once again and hope for more 'ups' than 'downs'. life is a cycle. hold on to dear life because it is bumpy road, guaranteed.
i wish for endless tracks on my roller coaster ride. i want a ride-all-you-can ticket and i'm sure no matter how many ups and downs, loops, turns and spins, plunges - i am bound to get there.
i'm ready and this time, i'm gonna ride through life with my hands in the air ...
the past year has been a rough one commencing with the K break-up in january. over the summer i learned of my father's health situation. right before thanksgiving day i was thrown back to my previous position at the corporate office. in between these major events were a few more 'down' situations. oddly, a great deal of the past year has been spent in the 'down'. it felt like i never was in the 'up'.
but like any roller coaster, the up and down ride through life comes to a stop. for a few minutes, the engine comes to a halt for a deserved breather. it is an opportunity to rest, process how the previous ride was and determine how to face the succeeding roll. at this point, we get off the roller coaster and think. then we are given a chance to have another go at it. ride once again and hope for more 'ups' than 'downs'. life is a cycle. hold on to dear life because it is bumpy road, guaranteed.
i wish for endless tracks on my roller coaster ride. i want a ride-all-you-can ticket and i'm sure no matter how many ups and downs, loops, turns and spins, plunges - i am bound to get there.
i'm ready and this time, i'm gonna ride through life with my hands in the air ...
Saturday, December 31, 2005
ode to 2006 ...
climb up over the top
survey the state of the soul
you've got to find out for yourself
whether or not you're truly tryin
why not give it a shot
shake it, take control
and inevitably wind up
findin for yourself all the strengths
that you have inside of you
inspired by the words of mraz ....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
survey the state of the soul
you've got to find out for yourself
whether or not you're truly tryin
why not give it a shot
shake it, take control
and inevitably wind up
findin for yourself all the strengths
that you have inside of you
inspired by the words of mraz ....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Monday, December 26, 2005
365 days to christmas
lunch at pauline and joe's ...
watched Lost dvd ...
left over spaghetti and slice of pumpkin pie for dinner ...
watched The Family Stone at the SO Galleria by myself ...
if i was back in high school and was asked to put together a 'how i spent my christmas day' essay, i would absolutely get a failing mark!
christmas day 2005 ... uneventful but just being able to relax, to breathe, and to go where the wind takes me made it special nonetheless.
watched Lost dvd ...
left over spaghetti and slice of pumpkin pie for dinner ...
watched The Family Stone at the SO Galleria by myself ...
if i was back in high school and was asked to put together a 'how i spent my christmas day' essay, i would absolutely get a failing mark!
christmas day 2005 ... uneventful but just being able to relax, to breathe, and to go where the wind takes me made it special nonetheless.
Friday, December 23, 2005
friday the 23rd
ok girls so check it ... i cruise controlled to work this morning! hahaha ... yes, cruise contol - 101 north - 70 miles per hour. pretty unusual for a friday morning drive on a southern california freeway but yah, i guess one of the lovely things about the holidays is that freeways miraculously open up. halleluyah! ALSO ... it was good to know that my cruise control actually STILL works. lol ... it's not very often do i get the chance to use it.
i am officially on christmas vacation!! funny tho that i have nothing planned for the next 4 days that i'm off work. it's one of those ocassions that i guess i'll just play things by ear, go where the wind takes me, or what not.
it's almost christmas. feels completely odd - this is my 5th christmas away from home.
i am officially on christmas vacation!! funny tho that i have nothing planned for the next 4 days that i'm off work. it's one of those ocassions that i guess i'll just play things by ear, go where the wind takes me, or what not.
it's almost christmas. feels completely odd - this is my 5th christmas away from home.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
week 51 2005 ...
mr. weatherman said it will be 72-74 degrees on christmas weekend. that's so weird! i just might have to turn on my AC on christmas day!
in other news ...
i feel completely lost using a mac. it's quite a challenge. annoying and disappointing at times coz i couldn't find my way around it. for sure tho somehow i'll get the hang of it. i love how the laptop is so small now. that in itself is a major adjustment switching from a 15 inch pc. it's all good. i'm up for the challenge.
hmm, it's a little sad to realize that i don't have any gifts to open on christmas day.
i wonder whose christmas dinner i'll be crashing this year ...
in other news ...
i feel completely lost using a mac. it's quite a challenge. annoying and disappointing at times coz i couldn't find my way around it. for sure tho somehow i'll get the hang of it. i love how the laptop is so small now. that in itself is a major adjustment switching from a 15 inch pc. it's all good. i'm up for the challenge.
hmm, it's a little sad to realize that i don't have any gifts to open on christmas day.
i wonder whose christmas dinner i'll be crashing this year ...
Monday, December 19, 2005
Sunday, December 11, 2005
holiday party ... minus '+1'
last night, i trekked over to simi valley for the company's holiday party at the Ronald Reagan Presidential Museum. i have to admit, the venue was very impressive. i got the chance to go inside Air Force One and although it was a 1971 and less hi-tech version of the aircraft we saw in the harrison ford movie, it was still very interesting. more over, it was almost an out of body experience to be dining under this imposing white aircraft.
the night unfolded with endless drinks, a nice dinner and an awesome dessert table. i had fun in spite of the fact that i shared the dinner table with five couples. yeh, it's one of those times that i question myself - where the hell is my '+1'? or will i ever have a '+1'?? i sipped on my cranberry juice laced heavily with absolut vodka as i ponder the thought.
a few drinks later, i realized that i don't need a '+1' to enjoy the party. i was cool by myself. i know for sure that i can enjoy life even if i have to face it by myself. it's sad most of the time yes, specially when i look around the dinner table and i see five pairs of faces beaming with happiness. i look away but only to see more of them happy couples. i manage a faint smile. i am happy.
as i trekked back to sherman oaks with a slight buzz in my head, i remind myself that happiness is not solely a product of a '+1'. i can live a normal single life and be happy, content and comfortable. i have a whole lot of other things that i am be thankful for. it shouldn't take a '+1' to complete my life equation.
i am single and i am proud of it - that in itself is a major '+'...
dear santa ...
singing to the tune of "white christmas"
i'm dreaming of a 12-inch powerbook
just like the ones at the apple store
where the aluminum alloy glisten
and to itunes i listen
to feel this hot mac on my lap
i'm dreaming of a 12-inch powerbook
with every blog entry i write
may your days be merry and light
and may this powerbook be mine
i'm dreaming of a 12-inch powerbook
just like the ones at the apple store
where the aluminum alloy glisten
and to itunes i listen
to feel this hot mac on my lap
i'm dreaming of a 12-inch powerbook
with every blog entry i write
may your days be merry and light
and may this powerbook be mine
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Monday, December 05, 2005
Christmas in Hell
check out Christmas in Hell by Michael Lent. now available on Amazon (Barnes and Noble will be coming soon). The book won't hit book store shelves until after the holidays but is currently available on Amazon and several other online venues.
and dont' forget to check the website - www.christmasinhell.com
ok peeps, go click on the link and order a copy of the book. it's the perfect holiday gift for your spouse, gf/bf, ex-gf/ex-bf. ex-ex-gf/ex-ex-bf (if you're still friends with them), relative, co-worker, neighbor, enemy or your landlady.
and i wonder .... what actually goes on in hell on christmas day? i doubt it if it's a holiday for them too. do they sulk all day coz the rest of the world is celebrating the birth of jesus christ? do they walk around and pretend that it is NOT the 25th of december? they probably celebrate it by turning up the heat or adding more wood to the fire. ehh i dunno. and i don't intend to find answers to my questions anytime soon. teehee .....
and dont' forget to check the website - www.christmasinhell.com
ok peeps, go click on the link and order a copy of the book. it's the perfect holiday gift for your spouse, gf/bf, ex-gf/ex-bf. ex-ex-gf/ex-ex-bf (if you're still friends with them), relative, co-worker, neighbor, enemy or your landlady.
and i wonder .... what actually goes on in hell on christmas day? i doubt it if it's a holiday for them too. do they sulk all day coz the rest of the world is celebrating the birth of jesus christ? do they walk around and pretend that it is NOT the 25th of december? they probably celebrate it by turning up the heat or adding more wood to the fire. ehh i dunno. and i don't intend to find answers to my questions anytime soon. teehee .....
Sunday, December 04, 2005
holiday ramblings
so it's been a month since i was last on here. amazing how time flies and more amazing is the fact that small things, piled on top of each other, can completely sidetrack a person from his normal routine.
i'm still reeling from recent events concerning my dad. he has been in poor health the past few weeks. i'm torn between the states of helplessness and hopelessness. i want to see him but i can't. i want to be with him but i can't. certain situations restrict me from seeing him and i begin to question myself - am i cut for this? a million "why's" has been running through my head. the more i try to look for answers, the more questions surface. it's been difficult to maintain normalcy, painful at times. i deny it but i know my mom and my older brother and sisters are right when they say that HERE is where dad wants me to be. this is what he planned for me. so i struggle to stay strong at the same time try to find answers to my questions. i hope and pray that an opportunity to see him again will be eventually become a reality.
thanksgiving day came and went. it's my 5th time to celebrate this holiday that i hardly understand but hell, it was a 4 day weekend so i might as well enjoy it. destination: las vegas. gooble and liquor up seems to be the theme of this holiday resulting to an uneasy feeling of bloatedness and dehydration by day 4. despite the 10 hour drive back to LA, it was overall a great weekend. las vegas is always fascinating, it's always alive. top that with an awesome set of friends, las vegas is one desert i'll gladly be stuck in.
oh let us back track to the monday before thanksgiving day. i went to supercuts in sherman oaks to get a buzz cut. note that i don't usually go to supercuts. i go to a stylist to cut my hair but since i wanted a buzz cut, i figure i'll save some moolah if i go to a cheaper salon instead of my $55-per-cut stylist (hell, if i had a clipper i can do it myself). so i sat there almost tearfully watching the girl clipper off my hair when this man dressed in all black and ski mask walks in announcing 'nobody moves' and 'you get on the floor'. to everyone's horror, this man was robbing supercuts at 7:30pm in a the middle of rather busy sherman oaks intersection! and to make it worse, he had a gun. i sat there and watched the scene thru the mirror. the man stood about 5 feet from my chair and he was continuously swinging around his gun and a couple of time it came really close to my head. i felt the blood drain from my face and i was nauseous. i knew for certain that he was gonna ask for my wallet and my razr phone coz i sat really close to him. at the back of my head, i was ready to give it if he asks but after getting the cash from the register, he took off. everybody was safe thankfully. we called 911 and 15 minutes later (took the cops that long) i was being questioned by an officer. i was a witness to a crime! ugh. the image of that man pretty stuck in my head for a couple of days. that night as i lay in bed i tried to process the whole experience. lesson learned - never go back to supercuts. yeh i did save a few bucks but for a few minutes i totally compromised my safety and my life. i didn't sleep very well that night.
i am back at the corporate office in westlake after a brief stint in simi valley handling purchasing and products. as much as i wanted to stay in simi, i wasn't really given much of a choice. i was rather upset about the whole thing. it certainly isn't a sign of growth going back to the same department i've been working in for the past 3 years. i felt a certain degree of embarassment the day i came back to corporate. i felt like i was demoted in some way although i know i was really not. i couldn't express an honest response to the "welcome back's" that i got all day. it was difficult to even acknowledge with a smile. i was frustrated. but being the eternal optimist that i am, i look at the bright side - at least i have a job in one the biggest advertising and marketing company in the US. i know for a fact that not a lot of people are the given the chance so i'm thankful.
i recently bought a book called 'a beginners guide to web design'. i've been wanting to learn web design for the longest time and even planned on going back to school for it. due to financial restrictions, those plans has been sitting in the back burner for quite some time. recently though i've realized that i should take the initial step - self study. 'study' being the operative word. i'm taking the bulls by the horn and trying to get really into it while my motivation is still in full gear. it's good to learn new things and i welcome the knowledge.
christmas is around the corner and a new year is upon us. the holiday season is always a challenge for me. this season brings me a certain level of depression, of homesickness. it's feels odd to celebrate christmas when you're away from home. it's almost an irony to its entire meaning. like my past birthdays, i try to find a reason to celebrate. and like the past 4 years, i bet going to church alone on christmas day will be a extremely painful. it's always sad to find myself amidst groups of families or close friends celebrating the true meaning of christmas day. i remain hopeful. i'm sure my
turn will soon come.
no day but today ....
i'm still reeling from recent events concerning my dad. he has been in poor health the past few weeks. i'm torn between the states of helplessness and hopelessness. i want to see him but i can't. i want to be with him but i can't. certain situations restrict me from seeing him and i begin to question myself - am i cut for this? a million "why's" has been running through my head. the more i try to look for answers, the more questions surface. it's been difficult to maintain normalcy, painful at times. i deny it but i know my mom and my older brother and sisters are right when they say that HERE is where dad wants me to be. this is what he planned for me. so i struggle to stay strong at the same time try to find answers to my questions. i hope and pray that an opportunity to see him again will be eventually become a reality.
thanksgiving day came and went. it's my 5th time to celebrate this holiday that i hardly understand but hell, it was a 4 day weekend so i might as well enjoy it. destination: las vegas. gooble and liquor up seems to be the theme of this holiday resulting to an uneasy feeling of bloatedness and dehydration by day 4. despite the 10 hour drive back to LA, it was overall a great weekend. las vegas is always fascinating, it's always alive. top that with an awesome set of friends, las vegas is one desert i'll gladly be stuck in.
oh let us back track to the monday before thanksgiving day. i went to supercuts in sherman oaks to get a buzz cut. note that i don't usually go to supercuts. i go to a stylist to cut my hair but since i wanted a buzz cut, i figure i'll save some moolah if i go to a cheaper salon instead of my $55-per-cut stylist (hell, if i had a clipper i can do it myself). so i sat there almost tearfully watching the girl clipper off my hair when this man dressed in all black and ski mask walks in announcing 'nobody moves' and 'you get on the floor'. to everyone's horror, this man was robbing supercuts at 7:30pm in a the middle of rather busy sherman oaks intersection! and to make it worse, he had a gun. i sat there and watched the scene thru the mirror. the man stood about 5 feet from my chair and he was continuously swinging around his gun and a couple of time it came really close to my head. i felt the blood drain from my face and i was nauseous. i knew for certain that he was gonna ask for my wallet and my razr phone coz i sat really close to him. at the back of my head, i was ready to give it if he asks but after getting the cash from the register, he took off. everybody was safe thankfully. we called 911 and 15 minutes later (took the cops that long) i was being questioned by an officer. i was a witness to a crime! ugh. the image of that man pretty stuck in my head for a couple of days. that night as i lay in bed i tried to process the whole experience. lesson learned - never go back to supercuts. yeh i did save a few bucks but for a few minutes i totally compromised my safety and my life. i didn't sleep very well that night.
i am back at the corporate office in westlake after a brief stint in simi valley handling purchasing and products. as much as i wanted to stay in simi, i wasn't really given much of a choice. i was rather upset about the whole thing. it certainly isn't a sign of growth going back to the same department i've been working in for the past 3 years. i felt a certain degree of embarassment the day i came back to corporate. i felt like i was demoted in some way although i know i was really not. i couldn't express an honest response to the "welcome back's" that i got all day. it was difficult to even acknowledge with a smile. i was frustrated. but being the eternal optimist that i am, i look at the bright side - at least i have a job in one the biggest advertising and marketing company in the US. i know for a fact that not a lot of people are the given the chance so i'm thankful.
i recently bought a book called 'a beginners guide to web design'. i've been wanting to learn web design for the longest time and even planned on going back to school for it. due to financial restrictions, those plans has been sitting in the back burner for quite some time. recently though i've realized that i should take the initial step - self study. 'study' being the operative word. i'm taking the bulls by the horn and trying to get really into it while my motivation is still in full gear. it's good to learn new things and i welcome the knowledge.
christmas is around the corner and a new year is upon us. the holiday season is always a challenge for me. this season brings me a certain level of depression, of homesickness. it's feels odd to celebrate christmas when you're away from home. it's almost an irony to its entire meaning. like my past birthdays, i try to find a reason to celebrate. and like the past 4 years, i bet going to church alone on christmas day will be a extremely painful. it's always sad to find myself amidst groups of families or close friends celebrating the true meaning of christmas day. i remain hopeful. i'm sure my
turn will soon come.
no day but today ....
Friday, November 04, 2005
california highway patrol
fate is trying to be funny. and i'm not laughing ...
i got pulled over yesterday morning on my way to work - going 82 mph on the 118 where there the maximum speed limit was 65. it's the first time i was pulled over so i had no idea how to handle the situation. the sudden rush of panic was awful. i tried to get myself out of getting a ticket by telling the truth - that i was running late for work which i really was. bottomline, i got a speeding ticket. and that weighed down heavily in my head for the rest of the day. i didn't want no speeding ticket considering how whacked my financial situation is right now. why oh why did this happen to me?? talk about wrong timing. i'm anxious to find out how much i have to pay. at least 200 bucks i've been told by friends/co-workers - oye! and on top of that, i have to go to court and go to driving school to off set the record otherwise it will affect my insurance. this is all bullshit!!! no holiday shopping for me!
in other news ...
weekend finally ... i'm off to watch mraz again on sunday. yeh, i saw him perform last saturday at the joint in vegas and i'm going again this sunday this time at the wiltern in LA. i'm mraz-merized what can i say? like my friend lesley once said, mraz is like the the male india arie. his songs, both fast and slow, are meaningful. it has essence. pure talent. and he has a wicked sense of humor that will send you rolling to the floor.
other than that, nothing else exciting is going on. nothing really to call home about.
i wanna win the lotto jackpot - $192,000,000
i got pulled over yesterday morning on my way to work - going 82 mph on the 118 where there the maximum speed limit was 65. it's the first time i was pulled over so i had no idea how to handle the situation. the sudden rush of panic was awful. i tried to get myself out of getting a ticket by telling the truth - that i was running late for work which i really was. bottomline, i got a speeding ticket. and that weighed down heavily in my head for the rest of the day. i didn't want no speeding ticket considering how whacked my financial situation is right now. why oh why did this happen to me?? talk about wrong timing. i'm anxious to find out how much i have to pay. at least 200 bucks i've been told by friends/co-workers - oye! and on top of that, i have to go to court and go to driving school to off set the record otherwise it will affect my insurance. this is all bullshit!!! no holiday shopping for me!
in other news ...
weekend finally ... i'm off to watch mraz again on sunday. yeh, i saw him perform last saturday at the joint in vegas and i'm going again this sunday this time at the wiltern in LA. i'm mraz-merized what can i say? like my friend lesley once said, mraz is like the the male india arie. his songs, both fast and slow, are meaningful. it has essence. pure talent. and he has a wicked sense of humor that will send you rolling to the floor.
other than that, nothing else exciting is going on. nothing really to call home about.
i wanna win the lotto jackpot - $192,000,000
Thursday, October 27, 2005
hump day updates - 2
i know!!! one day delayed and im sorry. lol .. i had a crazy day at work yesterday and i had dinner plans last night.
* end of the month bullshit here at work is driving me up the wall! i want it over! i need a force field.
* i saw melody lacayanga at the dance studio i go to last monday night. she's soo cute and diminutive. i wanna marry her.
* The Amazing Race was fun! non-elimination round so the pink Godlewski sisters were saved.
* off to vegas this weekend to see jason mraz play at The Joint at the Hard Rock Hotel. good times! kinda scared about the drive though coz it's halloween weekend and im sure a lot of peeps are trekking out to the desert.
* speaking of halloween, i'm still undecided what i will be this year.
* it's been rainy and cold the past few days - a sign that winter is just around the corner. time to take out those sweater, coats, scarves and beanies. cold season in southern california doesn't last very long though and thank god we don't have to deal with snow since my tolerance for cold weather is pretty low.
* imma try making pork sinigang tonight. i really like it maasim! (making asim face) and i like mashing the gabi with the rice then pour sour broth over it. pass me the patis!
* it's sorta my policy to learn something new every day and today i learned that the english term for gabi is taro root.
* The Tourettes Cowboy - a must see for the silly peeps like me.
* i badly need to get new headphones for my ipod. my right earpiece conked out. i dunno but listening to music with one earpiece doesn't feel right.
* end of the month bullshit here at work is driving me up the wall! i want it over! i need a force field.
* i saw melody lacayanga at the dance studio i go to last monday night. she's soo cute and diminutive. i wanna marry her.
* The Amazing Race was fun! non-elimination round so the pink Godlewski sisters were saved.
* off to vegas this weekend to see jason mraz play at The Joint at the Hard Rock Hotel. good times! kinda scared about the drive though coz it's halloween weekend and im sure a lot of peeps are trekking out to the desert.
* speaking of halloween, i'm still undecided what i will be this year.
* it's been rainy and cold the past few days - a sign that winter is just around the corner. time to take out those sweater, coats, scarves and beanies. cold season in southern california doesn't last very long though and thank god we don't have to deal with snow since my tolerance for cold weather is pretty low.
* imma try making pork sinigang tonight. i really like it maasim! (making asim face) and i like mashing the gabi with the rice then pour sour broth over it. pass me the patis!
* it's sorta my policy to learn something new every day and today i learned that the english term for gabi is taro root.
* The Tourettes Cowboy - a must see for the silly peeps like me.
* i badly need to get new headphones for my ipod. my right earpiece conked out. i dunno but listening to music with one earpiece doesn't feel right.
Monday, October 24, 2005
it's really pointless
top 10 things that make alex happy ...
10. home cooked chicken adobo over a plate of steamy white rice...
9. a kick-ass routine at dance class...
8. an acoustic Mraz concert...
7. long weekends consisting of trips to the beach or a road trip to Santa Barbara or San Diego...
6. endless afternoon naps...
5. ipoding at work...
4. fresh contact lens are almost orgasmic...
3. lunch breaks by the lagoon...
2. trip to a city/state i haven't seen before...
1. someone special who'll make an extra effort to make me happy when all else fails...
10. home cooked chicken adobo over a plate of steamy white rice...
9. a kick-ass routine at dance class...
8. an acoustic Mraz concert...
7. long weekends consisting of trips to the beach or a road trip to Santa Barbara or San Diego...
6. endless afternoon naps...
5. ipoding at work...
4. fresh contact lens are almost orgasmic...
3. lunch breaks by the lagoon...
2. trip to a city/state i haven't seen before...
1. someone special who'll make an extra effort to make me happy when all else fails...
alex the chef
my latest culinary accomplishment - beef with mushrooms and kaldereta! lmao ... damn, it feels good to actually know how to cook something. i'm slowly graduating from eternal sandwiches, tv dinners and microwaveable meals. it's awesome!
and even though the kaldereta took me two hours to prepare, it was worth every minute! the end product almost brought me to tears because it reminded me of home. it was a lucky first try i have to admit. i got the exact taste how mama makes it (unlike my first try with adobo which was only half-way decent). and after two hours of cooking it, i finished my meal in just 20 minutes. is it just me or does one really eat faster when they are all alone?? sadness...
so my next mission is pork sinigang which i heard is uber easy to make - even easier than beef steak. i'm not a big pork-y oink-y fan but i might as well tryit and add to my roster of culinary achievements. oooh it just hit me - shrimp sinigang! lol...
and even though the kaldereta took me two hours to prepare, it was worth every minute! the end product almost brought me to tears because it reminded me of home. it was a lucky first try i have to admit. i got the exact taste how mama makes it (unlike my first try with adobo which was only half-way decent). and after two hours of cooking it, i finished my meal in just 20 minutes. is it just me or does one really eat faster when they are all alone?? sadness...
so my next mission is pork sinigang which i heard is uber easy to make - even easier than beef steak. i'm not a big pork-y oink-y fan but i might as well tryit and add to my roster of culinary achievements. oooh it just hit me - shrimp sinigang! lol...
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
hump day updates
ok ... every wednesday starting today, imma try doing a weekly-update-whats-goin-on-with-my-life-random-shoutouts-i-speak-my-mind-blah-blah-i'm-a-dork kinda post ...
* san francisco trip last weekend. happy to see my step-lola. pig out on caldereta and rice. ulk!
* hang out with my high school friend Mei on sunday afternoon. window shopping in downtown san fran. stroll on market street. movie at metreon. dinner at Cheesecake Factory which sits on the rooftop of the Macy’s Building in the heart of Union Square. sigh, a pretty autumn day in san fran!
* thanks for a storm named Wilma, i had the most horrifying flight ever! 30 minutes of turbulence while i watched lighting and rain thru the airplane window. i seriously thought that was it - the end, kaput, goodbye, adios, sayonara. i held on to my armrest like i would hold on to my dear life. i said a prayer and made a note to my family and friends just in case i die inside this crappy piece of flying metal called Southwest.
* ugly shoes and i talked last night. pleh! i can see where this "relationship" is going. "call you in a few days." makes me shudder every time!
* my YM buddy lesley is in a flash training in anaheim today. ugh, it's almost impossible to survive a work day without her!!
* from KGB (10/18) "Hi alex how are u. What u dont like to talk to me any more? No call, i see ur friends out, but your not there. What is all this about. I think i saw u on friday, maybe. U look hot, if it was not u well u looked hot anyway. I think ur hair is longer maybe. Well any way myy weekend was ok, just chilled out and saw a movie. I heard u were in S.F. to see family. Ill call u tonight. chow."
* i freakin missed Amazing Race Family Edition last night. grrrr ....
* i am very close to maxing out one of my credit cards! *shock*
* i discovered a Big Lots close to work - 3.5 miles away only!
* billie, a very good college friend of mine is coming to LA. wow! i think it's been about 5 years since i last saw her. can't wait!
* dance class tonight .. weee!!!!
* my next culinary project - beef with mushrooms.
* it's 3:56pm. an hour and a half to go! i'm clockwatchin.
* san francisco trip last weekend. happy to see my step-lola. pig out on caldereta and rice. ulk!
* hang out with my high school friend Mei on sunday afternoon. window shopping in downtown san fran. stroll on market street. movie at metreon. dinner at Cheesecake Factory which sits on the rooftop of the Macy’s Building in the heart of Union Square. sigh, a pretty autumn day in san fran!
* thanks for a storm named Wilma, i had the most horrifying flight ever! 30 minutes of turbulence while i watched lighting and rain thru the airplane window. i seriously thought that was it - the end, kaput, goodbye, adios, sayonara. i held on to my armrest like i would hold on to my dear life. i said a prayer and made a note to my family and friends just in case i die inside this crappy piece of flying metal called Southwest.
* ugly shoes and i talked last night. pleh! i can see where this "relationship" is going. "call you in a few days." makes me shudder every time!
* my YM buddy lesley is in a flash training in anaheim today. ugh, it's almost impossible to survive a work day without her!!
* from KGB (10/18) "Hi alex how are u. What u dont like to talk to me any more? No call, i see ur friends out, but your not there. What is all this about. I think i saw u on friday, maybe. U look hot, if it was not u well u looked hot anyway. I think ur hair is longer maybe. Well any way myy weekend was ok, just chilled out and saw a movie. I heard u were in S.F. to see family. Ill call u tonight. chow."
* i freakin missed Amazing Race Family Edition last night. grrrr ....
* i am very close to maxing out one of my credit cards! *shock*
* i discovered a Big Lots close to work - 3.5 miles away only!
* billie, a very good college friend of mine is coming to LA. wow! i think it's been about 5 years since i last saw her. can't wait!
* dance class tonight .. weee!!!!
* my next culinary project - beef with mushrooms.
* it's 3:56pm. an hour and a half to go! i'm clockwatchin.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
denial
a routine trip to K-mart turned out to be a wake-up call.i almost flipped when i walked into a section of the store laid out with fake christmas trees, beaming santas, and endless rows of holiday decors. i yelled to myself - 'already??! fuck me, i ain't ready'.
halloween isn't even over yet. for a second, i was tempted to talk to the manager to ease my panic attack. i wanted tell him that this isn't right. after a few seconds of deep breathing, i realized that it is already october and indeed, the holidays is just around the corner. it pretty much goes downhill after halloween. holiday songs will be playing on the radio, holiday decors everywhere you turn, red/green/gold ornaments etc etc! and slowly i will drift into my annual holiday depression. for me, the holidays mean 'a complicated level of homesickness'.
hohoho ... with a frown.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
=(
Cold, cold water surrounds me now
And all I've got is your hand
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Or am I lost?
(from Damien Rice's Cold Water)
And all I've got is your hand
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Or am I lost?
(from Damien Rice's Cold Water)
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
pinoy beef steak
yum yum for my tum tum!!!sunday night i was bored out of my wits when suddenly i remembered the beef steak recipe my sister gave me over the phone just a few nights ago. i rushed to Pavillions at the top of my street, got the ingredients and 30 minutes later i was enjoying a plateful of rice and my own home-made beef steak. it wasn't difficult to make it. and i realized what a dork i was for not trying it sooner.
and i am oh so proud of myself. hehe ... it wasn't as good like my yaya back home would cook it but mine turned out ok for a first-time try. i was so happy with my beef steak that i was tempted to gobble up the whole thing. lol ...
maybe this coming weekend i'll try adobo. it's gonna my new thing - i should learn how to make filipino dishes. i've been asked a million times before by my american friends if i know how to make chicken adobo or pansit (apparently, these are the most popular filipino dishes). i die of embarassment everytime i answer in the negative.
i should call home and tell mom about my recent culinary success. hahaha .. it's been 2 days and i'm still stoked over my beef steak. so stoked that i even had to make a special blog entry about it! good times!!
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